It is hard to believe it has been eight weeks since my last treatment. In my mind it is fresh as if it just happened, but my energy tells me otherwise. I've been back to work for almost 7 weeks now and it has felt very difficult most of the time. I realized that I had been putting all I had into fighting this disease and getting through treatment and then coming back to work I had to put all I had into getting back on top of my business. This left me exhausted and wishing for my bed by 7:00 pm. It has just been the last 10 days or so that I've felt like it is all getting easier. This week I've worked all day and then still had the energy to make dinner and then banana bread with my kids. Yesterday I shopped some after work and then came home to make a birthday cake for my mother-in-law and I could do it. If you've ever been through chemo and radiation you know how refreshing it is to have the energy to do simple things that once came easily. My hope now is that I can build some strength back in my legs as they still hurt or tire easily with activity. I'm not up for riding my bike or doing squats quite yet, but I may begin walking around the neighborhood.
I am still waiting to have a scan scheduled. Oddly, I'm not nervous or uneasy about the results, but I am beginning to dread going back to the radiation office and drinking that awful Pet-Scan stuff. I should get an appointment mid-June and then I'll follow up with a Dr appointment to get the results. The great news is that my appointments in Oklahoma City went very well. Both doctors believe I am healing as well as possible and there are no signs of complications at this point. They both agreed that they would have deemed my exams completely normal , so there was no evidence of this enhanced ridge that has been evident before. This was wonderful news to Billy and I, as you can imagine. Perhaps this is why I feel at peace while waiting for the scan, but I believe God grants us peace in any circumstance if our eyes are fixed on Him. (Isaiah 26:3) My prayer is that my mind would stay focused on Him and that I would allow Him to lead me as I move forward. There are decisions to make around medications, follow-up appointments and finances that you could pray for as well.
Thank you for checking in. I so appreciate all of you.
You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you,all whose thoughts are fixed on you!