For those of us with daughters we're familiar with how much passion a young girl can put into her words and actions. My daughter is off the charts emotionally, which is amazing and delightful when she's happy or full of love. She can break your heart in a second when she is really sad, as her whole body shows her sorrow and pain. The issue comes when she is angry, SO angry that you better watch out! We've had to talk a lot about where to direct her anger and how to have self-control with her words and actions. Because of these talks she now asks permission to use the "H" word. I know what you are thinking. Hell. However, that's not a word my 6 year old considers yet, but she would like to use the other "H" word frequently. Hate. As a parent or caregiver, how many times do you find yourself saying things like, "Please don't say that. That's not a nice word" or "We don't talk like that. You need to use kind words"? In my home, I tend to explain that "hate" is a very strong word and we need to use something more like "we really don't like that". Lately, I'm breaking my own rules a lot and I'm going to give my kids permission to as well.
I'm sorrowed by the fact that I've let so much time go by since my last blog entry. This brings me to my knees and humbles me. I knew I was at a loss for words when I'd begin to write on this blog or in a card, and I would just stare at the empty page. I couldn't form my feelings into a sentence and because of this I have missed a great opportunity. The opportunity to share who God is and give him the glory that is due Him. For this I am sorry and embarrassed. So much time has passed and now that my situation has changed once again I find my words fill this page so easily. This is so frustrating, but leaves no doubt that Satan has been working on me, stifling my words. This is cause for a new house rule. Now, we are always allowed to use the "H" word when it comes to Satan. I HATE SATAN!
Please follow along as I try to get caught up on my story since November. I think this is a very important process as I can prove that although God is not predictable, He is always good. Oh, and God HATES Satan too!