You might find a cup of tea for this post as a number of us will share our Memories of the Miracle day of JUNE 5, 2012!AMY REMEMBERS.................
Sometimes (many times) God does things we don't fully understand and a year ago today was one of those days. I awoke early that morning to lay before the Lord, Literally face down on my living room floor, to beg God for a Miracle for Kristi on this given day as she was walking in to do the Pelvic Exenteration Surgery.. For me I was here at home with my kids and Kristi's all tucked safely in their beds still enjoying the early morning hours of sleep - The plan was set in place - I was to watch her kids for the month that she would be in Houston following this life changing surgery; we had crossed all our t's and dotted all our i's, we were willing and ready to be OBEDIENT and walk the path God had called each of us too! Yet still in the backs of our minds we hoped and somewhat felt that God had other plans in store, but He had yet to reveal them to us - so I awoke and did the only thing I knew to do - and that was PRAY! God gave me two very distinct verses as I laid there praying Ps. 27:13-14 I am still confident of this, I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living WAIT for the Lord, be Strong and take heart and WAIT on the Lord! and Ps. 28:6 Praise be to the Lord for He has HEARD my cry for mercy. The Lord is my strength, my shield, my heart trusts in Him and I am helped. My heart leaps for JOY and I will give thanks to Him in Song. - I remember my dad calling me about 5:30 as they had just said goodbye to Kristi as she walked back to the surgical room... we cried and we prayed together, we shared what God had spoke to each of us that morning and we said our goodbyes while we sat and waited in our respected places, dad at MD Anderson and Me at home. The sun came up and the sound of children filled my home and I passed the baton of care off to my husband as I headed to work and pleaded again with God on my drive that He would give me a clear mind to care for my clients when my mind was elsewhere. God is Faithful and I was able to be present for my clients but in between a couple of clients I received a text from my dad saying "We got our Miracle" I closed my door and shed a few happy tears before ushering the next client into my office... I wanted to dance and sing and weep but my days work was not done! Jeff sent me a text picture of Isaiah and Alyssa after they had talked to their daddy on the phone and heard that Mommy had been given a miracle - the first thing I noticed was that the sparkle in Isaiah's eyes had returned! Thank you Jesus for HEARING our cries for help on June 5th 2012 - Today we still learn to WAIT on you - to see what you are up to but we WAIT in Faith and we do not Forget the Miracle of 2012!
DO WE LOVE GOD AND BELIEVE HE IS GOOD when we get a miracle and when we experience loss?? Yes.... We can say this without doubting... HE IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!! He is the same God in the dark and in the light. He is the same God on the Mountains and in the Valleys. These pictures from June 5th 2012 remind me of how you, our dear friends and readers, and how we as family have walked both in a year's time. The mountain top experience of a modern day miracle and the terrifying valley of facing death and loss with the radical surgery performed 6 months later.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:8,9
My parents and I had the unique experience of sitting in that same waiting room twice. Saying goodbye twice. Praying with Kristi in the pre-op room twice. Anxiously waiting to hear news from the Dr.s twice. One time, we waited 5 hours to see Kristi, and the next time it was nearly 16 hours before we saw her. One time, we left the hospital the same day we came, and the next time we stayed at the hospital for weeks. One time, Kristi left as she came, and the next time she left with life altering changes to her physical body and life. But each time......we left knowing that our God was REAL AND ALWAYS THE SAME! He was good and worthy of our trust. Each time, we came and went feeling God's presence through you!!
One year ago today, I watched Billy fearfully and sadly walk Kristi down that hall at MD Anderson at 5:15a.m. Then, that very afternoon I watched the miracle of him joyfully walking her back into the apartment we had rented for one month. I remember that many of you gave money that we used to rent this apartment for the month. I also remember that they wouldn't give us our money back to return to you so we didn't choose to rent from them for round two. : ) I look back and really can't even process all that we have lived in one years time! WHEW!! No wonder we still feel tired!
Thank you God for your grace and strength and care, and thank YOU for
how you have lived and prayed and walked with us.
God is good.............Danina