I'm thinking about a video I've seen. It's of a female in the boxing ring and she's being hit over and over with new information about her cancer. It's a combination of physical and emotional blows. One after the other they keep coming and there is nothing she can do but resolve to stay on her feet. Keep fighting. Blocking. Keep choosing her next move with each and every hit until the triumphant end of the final round.
I am ringside before the 4th round praying deep down that this will be the one. The one that puts cancer down and out. I came out full of fury and fight in the first round. Determination and focus. The second round brought me to the point of wanting to surrender and the unexpected happened. A counterpunch that put cancer down for the count...a miracle for sure. The third round became painful and so hard physically, mentally and emotionally. I felt like I'd been hit repeatedly below the belt, yet I struggled to endure and persevere....digging deep to remember my training and my purpose in the fight. It was a barnburner, a nail-biter, intense kind of fight. The bell sounded and it felt so sweet.
Now, I will begin the 4th round. I am tired. I am disappointed that the fight continues. I wanted there to be a knockout in the first round, but the attacker is more sly and aggressive than I thought. I will choose to continue the good fight no matter the cost. I will not allow this round to knock me off my feet. I stand on a firm foundation and have a clear understanding of my purpose. I believe in my coach. I believe in my team. I believe in my training. I will go the distance. I pray this will be so easy it's a snoozer.
Match Date: May 6, 2015
Time: 9:15 AM
Boxers: Kristi vs Cancer
Tactics: Taxol, Carboplatin, Avistin
Coach: Jesus Christ
Training: Holy Bible/Prayer
Team: All of You
Thank you team, for your relentless prayers for my husband, Billy, my children, myself, family, friends, Dr B and Nurses. God bless. xoxo
Exodus 14:14 " The Lord WILL fight for you. Just stay calm." (NLT)
2 Chronicles 20:17 "You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you.... Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you." (NIV)