Guess what? My story isn't over yet! This Thursday I get to go meet with my local medical oncologist to learn about a KRAS Phase 1 clinical trial starting here in Northwest Arkansas! If all goes well I will be able to sign the consent to participate and begin all the pre testing required before treatment can begin. This can take 30 days after I consent, based on my understanding.
This is such an answer to prayer and a beautiful gift of "something to try" when no standard treatment options are left. Yet, I cannot deny that it is making me very nervous. The fact that I have "something to try" means that treatment must begin again soon. I wonder if it will work. I worry about how it will make me feel. I wonder what it will cost....physically, emotionally and financially. I admit there is an active battle in my mind and heart. I am grateful that my story isn't over yet. I'm worried this won't work or will steal my quality of life. I feel guilty for dreading a treatment when there are others who are begging for a "something to try". The battle goes on and on, back and forth. I've drafted other posts about how God is encouraging me in this battle, but I feel that God is asking me to share the struggle instead of His answer...for now.
Please join me in thanking God for answering our prayers for a clinical trial. Thank God for the many people who leaned in against the crashing current to help me stand strong in the face of disappointment and illness. (See Older Prayer Request Post) Thank God for a clinical trial that is local and a doctor who is actively pushing it through.
Also, join me in asking God that the trial will help me in a shockingly positive way. Ask God to keep away all side effects and allow me to continue to live as active as I am now. Ask God to lead the way and use my story to bring Him glory and honor. May I fade into the background and only Christ be seen in my life.
Yay......I'm so excited to share this news with you all! It's been a long wait! Thursday at 10 am!