It feels good to have some "normal", but feels wrong at the same time. I realize this may seem confusing to some, but to those that have gone through real trials I think it will make sense. Its like I am sitting there completely enjoying "normal" and then for just a few seconds something makes my mind remember that things are not really normal. Not for me; not right now. I know they will be again and my mind can go back to the moment...this single moment that I don't want to miss. I don't want to take for granted a good cup of tea with my family member, a chat with a friend, a hug from my husband, a ever long story told by my kids. I am so thankful for these moments and blessed by so many who care and love me. Today in the middle of chaos I find I am grateful.
- Our God that never leaves me and cares about my every need.
- My Husband who is fully committed to me and would carry my illness himself if he were able.
- My parents who raised me in a Christian home so that I know where to turn during a time like this.
- Our family who is willing to care for me in any way....researching, buying groceries, bringing dinner, running errands, driving to doctor visits, being "listeners", etc
- Our friends who have shown such compassion and support and been prayer warriors on my behalf.
- My doctors and nurses that have communicated to me with sensitivity and honesty.
- My employer that has been so patient and understanding and my colleagues that have picked up a lot of extra work during an already busy time.
- My nanny who has been so flexible to help with our kids and give me peace of mind that they are in good care.
- Those of you that have supported my husband and our families as they deal with this news as well.
"I will praise you, Lord, with all my heart; I will tell of all the marvelous things you have done. I will be filled with joy because of you. I will sing praises to your name." Psalms 9:1-2