People say waiting on a woman is difficult, but try waiting on a doctor!
I've become very skilled in the process of waiting.
Finally get an appointment....then wait and wait for the date to arrive.
Hurry up to the appointment.....then sit and wait while they are only "30 minutes to 1 hour" behind.
Get all those follow up tests and scans done.....then wait for the doctor to review them.
Right now....I wait by the phone. Wait for a clinical trial to become available. Wait for a status update on immunotherapy. Wait to learn if another institution will see me.
Good thing my doctor is a man or I'd be in double trouble, right?!?
Seriously though, this seems to be taking forever. I did get a call last Wednesday night from my doctor in Houston. He said that there are currently no clinical trials available to me in the next 3-4 months and there is nothing on the Horizon at this point either. That April appointment they offered will be a good time to review the trial options again, I guess.
In the mean time, my doctor is following up on one more option for Immunotherapy and I'm hoping to hear back from him tonight or tomorrow. If Immunotherapy isn't an option my local doctor, my Houston doctor and I will have a consultation about next steps. The local KRAS trail sounds promising, but it may not begin for another 9-10 weeks. Again, I wait to hear a firm start date from the doctor.
Currently, I'm looking for clinical trials elsewhere. With this being such a rare gyn cancer and it being metastatic it is rather difficult to know which trials I really qualify for, but we pray God will lead us to the right thing at the right time.
If something doesn't show up by the end of the month, I will most likely have to begin a new regimen of chemotherapy with the hopes to hold off any new growth and potentially shrink the cancer while we "wait" for a clinical trial to open up.
I'm learning the timing for all of these things is pretty important because there is a 30 day wash out period before a clinical trial. This means all other treatment stops for 30 days to make sure my system is clean to begin the trial.
I know that God's timing has always proven perfect.
I know that God sees the road ahead and his plan for me is perfect.
I know that I don't spend one minute "waiting" alone. The way Jesus waits with me is perfect.
I know that through this God is still perfecting me.
God's way is perfect. All the LORD's promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection. Psalms 18:30
God is my strong fortress, and he makes my way perfect. 2 Samuel 22:33
And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age. Matthew 28:20b
Jehovah will perfect that which concerneth me: Thy lovingkindness, O Jehovah, endureth for ever; Forsake not the works of thine own hands. Psalms 138:8