Reality?

This picture makes me think of how social media so often portrays only the good side of our lives. If I only posted this pic with no commentary, you’d think I feel great and am busy living life! In reality, I took a 2 hour rest in order to have enough energy to spend 45 minutes putting myself together for family photos.  The photos were being taken at the end of the driveway, but Chris walked me to the truck so that Billy could drive me down there. We spent 15-20 minutes doing various photos and then in the truck I went to go back to the couch. 

I am so grateful to be with family who cares for me, are patient with me and are being attentive to how I feel or what I need. This has allowed me to get away for Christmas in Colorado and enjoy new scenery and quality time. Good for my spirit! 

One week ago I finished my 5 doses of double radiation, which just means they radiated two places, but individually back to back. I’ve been fighting pain, fatigue, nausea, fever and weakness. This morning I woke in pain and had 102.7 temp. I’m on a 2nd round of antibiotics so this fever is a mystery. Have you ever had fever solely because of intense pain? It comes and goes randomly. 

I’ll have a couple weeks to recover from radiation, plus Monday Jan 2nd I will do my 2nd dose of Avastin in the infusion room. 

Please be praying that Avastin and this radiation stops all new growth and shrinks current tumors. 

Pray for my travels home and my pain. 

Pray my fever goes away and there is no infection. 

Lastly, there is a clinical trial that my tissue has the marker for, but we don’t know if there is room for me. Please pray over this as my local oncologist has referred me and I’ll get an update next week. 🙏🏻

Sorry for the late update. I just haven’t had the focus or energy to even be on electronics. 

Merry Christmas and God bless!🌠